AAAAAAAAAAAARGHHH

"AAAAAAAAAAARGHHH" pretty much sums up whats going on in my head at the moment.

life is sweet tho,
i'm leaving to korea next monday
and the guy i like, likes me back
what more do i need?

well its more complicated...

newhooo, i decided to see what it was like writing a post on my new mac :)
and it's SWELLLLL~~~
lol catchya!

bloody @#$&*#$%$#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why is it always me! who never gets what they want T.T
it's soooooo unfair..

ok let me start from the beginning.

last sunday i saw the church guy for the first time in 2 weeks, and i had convinced myself that i did not like him any more.. and then what happens? as soon as i see him, as soon as he rubs my back, i'm head over heels once again. so anyway, i'm all depressed, but happy, cos i get to see him at night after church too, so i'm all happy blah blah blah, but depressed lol. and the reason i was happy was because i found out he is not 30.. he is 28!! which is good :) it's a single digit difference, hehe. but when i tell him i am leaving for korea in 6 months, he tells me "oh no , then we can't see each for one and a half years" and i'm like WHY, and he goes, "cos i'm going to korea for one year in august" and that is when i get back.. :(

then 2 days later, on the tuesday, i got to the minister house, to bid farewell to one of our church friends, and we end up driving up to dandenong mountain, in my small, and very weak micra. and after much fight over who is going to sit in my front seat next to me, my church guy wins :) and boy was i happy, he also sat there on the way back. :) :) :)

then i was suposed to see him on thursday and friday of that week too, but i didnot.
then i saw him today, and i badgered him to buy me an icecream, cos he sed he would. neway then i saw him with this girl :o! i was crushed, cos he would rub her back and grab her by the hand and pull her like he did me..... i was very crushed, tottallly unexplainably crushed. apparently she was leaving to korea today, so he walked her to the station.. :( then i remembered what my mum said to me, "don't like a guy just cos he seems to be nice to you, cos guys are nice to all girls, that's just their nature".. @#$%^%@##@#!!!!!

newho.. we are going out this tues.. to watch yes man and have dinner?
thinking maybe i should make a move? apparently today my mum asked him if he is going to get married or not (Because i have a sneaking suspicion that she is suspicious that i like him lol) and he told me he sed "i will if you let me marry yoonah" and i'm pretty sure thats what he sed, because my mum wouldn't tell me what he sed. so i'm thinking of telling him on tuesday, in a joking way, but to get an answer out of him, "marry me when we meet up next year". and see what he says,
cos he is the cutest, nicest, manliest, sensitive, PERFECt guy i have ever EVER EVERRRRRRRR met, which makes me wonder will i find anyone more perfect???

anyway enuff of him,, this is why its taken me so long to write a new blog, this blog just reminds me of him, and i get depressed..

newhoo,, on friday i went out with cc chrissy and elaine, we had dinner, which went right through me, and maxibons for dessert, well they did. then on saturday i met up with cc for a bout of shopping, where we ended up getting 9 pairs of shoes between us, most of them mine,, haha but hey they were nice, we spent almost 2 hours in the warehouse wondering whether party feet really do work, and whether we should get the shoes that were a size too big, and the shoes that were a size too small. we DID end up getting both hahah. then off to wittner outlet for another few pair of shoes.. then back to glenny where we got party feet, and after tentatively sticking them on, realised with delight that they do work. i then went to knox where i met up with some high school friens, where we had nandoz, (As usual) and watched bride wars, which i would give 2/5 stars. then of course i had church today, and i've just gotten back from dinner with a few work friends. we ended up going to safeway to pay back all those people who made us "Freshly slice ham/proscuitto/mortadella" etc on our clean slicers just before closing time. and imust say i thought it would feel good, but we just ended up feeling sorry for the girl, especially cos i didn't buy any of it. haha

wish me luck for tuesday xx

so much to say, it's all crammed in my head!

wow, i have so much that's been going on, but cos there's soo much, i've forgotten most of it.
let me get started right away:
on friday night cecie and christina came over for dinner and a movie,
i swear me must be subconciously thinking about vampires all the time,
because we unknowingly chose a horror movie about vampires, lol
i swear we didn't choose it on purpose, we actually skipped past all the vampire ones, oh well.. lol
then the next day, i had to get up at 5.30 to get to work by 6am!
6am-3pm, it doesn't sound as bad as it may seem. the hours go by quite quick!

this week i think will be the last week i work full time
i WAS going to work till next week but i cbf!
i swear 2-11pm everyday will make you go bananas,
especially if the people you work with are crap!

hmmmm what else.. i missed church yesterday, which means i didn't see the guy
i dunno if thats a good or bad thing, cos i do wanna see if i have any feelings left
but then i really don't want to know at the same time, cos if i do,
then it'll be that much harder to leave. (classified info) LOL

i've just gotten home from work, my head is pounding with blood, and my legs and feet are throbbing,, also with blood haha..

the 6 kilos i have lost? i think i've gained 2 back. hahaha
maan i need to get better scales, you weigh yourself, and it says one thing, you weigh yourself agen to see if its accurate, then it comes up with something totally different. oh well, it shows your average weight.

i changed my layout! hope you like it.
ciao for now.xx sweet dreamsz..

the new year :)

NEW YEARS RESOLUTION: ..
?? to get fit? to study harder? to find love?
they never seem to change.. how predictable we humans are.. hmm

anyway i wish everyone a happy healthy and prosperous new year !!!!

i am glad to say i started this year off with no thoughts in my head,
no depressing thoughts, no sad thoughts,.. nothing
which means i am almost over that guy.. thank goodness?? lol

i know i know.. it's quite quick.
but i figure, why let yourself be depressed and sad when it's only affecting you, and you know its not going to work out?? MOVE ON SISTER!!
or i guess you could just say it doesn't sound like i liked him enuff,,
but that's not true.

i'll let you know the best way to get over someone?
just focus on allll their bad points, convince yourself that they're not for you, that you'll find someone better. i guess it kind of worked..
although all his bad points were, short and old? but what does height and age have to do with anything?

today i was at chadstone with my mum, and i saw a couple go by, and i felt myself criticising them..
it was an asian girl with an aussie man who was prolly 10 years older than her..
and i just thought, how could i let myself think that they shouldn't be together?
why should outsiders even care? if thats what makes those 2 people happy, who are we to say anything. you can prolly say i learnt something from all this, lol (well i want to tell myself that)

anyway the girls are coming over tonight, christina and cecie. they were supposed to be here 2 minutes ago.. where are those girls.. tsk tsk lol.
anyhoo there's much more to say, but they'll be here any minute,
i'll update next time

ciaooooooooooo :)