why is it always me! who never gets what they want T.T
it's soooooo unfair..
ok let me start from the beginning.
last sunday i saw the church guy for the first time in 2 weeks, and i had convinced myself that i did not like him any more.. and then what happens? as soon as i see him, as soon as he rubs my back, i'm head over heels once again. so anyway, i'm all depressed, but happy, cos i get to see him at night after church too, so i'm all happy blah blah blah, but depressed lol. and the reason i was happy was because i found out he is not 30.. he is 28!! which is good :) it's a single digit difference, hehe. but when i tell him i am leaving for korea in 6 months, he tells me "oh no , then we can't see each for one and a half years" and i'm like WHY, and he goes, "cos i'm going to korea for one year in august" and that is when i get back.. :(
then 2 days later, on the tuesday, i got to the minister house, to bid farewell to one of our church friends, and we end up driving up to dandenong mountain, in my small, and very weak micra. and after much fight over who is going to sit in my front seat next to me, my church guy wins :) and boy was i happy, he also sat there on the way back. :) :) :)
then i was suposed to see him on thursday and friday of that week too, but i didnot.
then i saw him today, and i badgered him to buy me an icecream, cos he sed he would. neway then i saw him with this girl :o! i was crushed, cos he would rub her back and grab her by the hand and pull her like he did me..... i was very crushed, tottallly unexplainably crushed. apparently she was leaving to korea today, so he walked her to the station.. :( then i remembered what my mum said to me, "don't like a guy just cos he seems to be nice to you, cos guys are nice to all girls, that's just their nature".. @#$%^%@##@#!!!!!
newho.. we are going out this tues.. to watch yes man and have dinner?
thinking maybe i should make a move? apparently today my mum asked him if he is going to get married or not (Because i have a sneaking suspicion that she is suspicious that i like him lol) and he told me he sed "i will if you let me marry yoonah" and i'm pretty sure thats what he sed, because my mum wouldn't tell me what he sed. so i'm thinking of telling him on tuesday, in a joking way, but to get an answer out of him, "marry me when we meet up next year". and see what he says,
cos he is the cutest, nicest, manliest, sensitive, PERFECt guy i have ever EVER EVERRRRRRRR met, which makes me wonder will i find anyone more perfect???
anyway enuff of him,, this is why its taken me so long to write a new blog, this blog just reminds me of him, and i get depressed..
newhoo,, on friday i went out with cc chrissy and elaine, we had dinner, which went right through me, and maxibons for dessert, well they did. then on saturday i met up with cc for a bout of shopping, where we ended up getting 9 pairs of shoes between us, most of them mine,, haha but hey they were nice, we spent almost 2 hours in the warehouse wondering whether party feet really do work, and whether we should get the shoes that were a size too big, and the shoes that were a size too small. we DID end up getting both hahah. then off to wittner outlet for another few pair of shoes.. then back to glenny where we got party feet, and after tentatively sticking them on, realised with delight that they do work. i then went to knox where i met up with some high school friens, where we had nandoz, (As usual) and watched bride wars, which i would give 2/5 stars. then of course i had church today, and i've just gotten back from dinner with a few work friends. we ended up going to safeway to pay back all those people who made us "Freshly slice ham/proscuitto/mortadella" etc on our clean slicers just before closing time. and imust say i thought it would feel good, but we just ended up feeling sorry for the girl, especially cos i didn't buy any of it. haha
wish me luck for tuesday xx
