last saturday i caught up with a few girls plus greg from high school,
we had dinner at nandoz (knox) then chilled out at the coffee club,
reminiscing about old times.
next year will be my third year of uni,
i feel so old, but there are times when i wish i was older, and times when i wish i was younger. so i guess all i can do is make the most of now. but it's very hard to do so, as everyone prolly knows.
then i left for church camp on christmas day. i was absolutely dreading it, cos i thort that i would be a loner, cos i'm not really friends with anyone, just this one girl, but she left for korea. but it worked out to be great, i got to know almost everyone, and am pleased to say my korean has improved a lil.. hehe
after returning from camp on boxing day, i went shopping with my mum, but did not buy anything cos i was too stingy. and i went shopping the next day too, but again i was too stingy. however that night (Saturday) i splurged $100 on dvds T.T.. don't judge me tho, i was depressed. lol
it's a very looooong story..
but i'll try to keep it short.
the guy that i like, is too old for me, but he's perfect! manly, warm, protective. everything i want and need in a man. but my mum does not like him. i don't really want to know why. anyway i was all depressed cos i thought, even if things do work out between us, nothing can happen, because my mum will say no. i guess that's not reli a problem unless i plan to get married to him. but the thing is, crazy enough.. i would get married to him lol.
i saw him today, he asked for my number, he was very nice, etc etc
i really have to figure out what i'm going to do about this,
whether to like him or cut it off, but how can you simply just cut your feelings off when you like someone a lot. i never let myself get like this, not after what happened with my ex (egyptian). but for some reason i let myself this time, and now i am suffering.
i'll keep you posted in what i am going to do,
it will most likely be me giving up, because i'm too young to get married, and it will just NOT work out, because it never does for me.. funnily enuf i'm sadder and more nervous about this then when i knew my results were coming out. i'd rather that feeling than this! HELP!!!
have a good new year all xx
