FUCK THIS

i need to bitch about the children that i teach.

FUCKING ANNOYING DISRESPECTFUL SHITS THAT DRIVE ME UP THE FUCKING WALL
FUUCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

i can't take it anymore.
i give out candy, "I DIDN'T GET AS MANY COS I WAS LATE"
WELL DON'T FUCKING COME LATE YOU FUCK

"GIVE US CANDY"
I WILL IF YOU FUCKING BEHAVE

"WE WANT TO PLAY GAME"
THEN FUCKING GET YOUR WORK FINISHED WHEN I GIVE YOU THE FUCKING TIME TO

DON'T FUCK AROUND IN MY CLASSROOM,
DON'T FUCKEN DISRESPECT ME
DON'T FUCKING COMPLAIN WHEN I GIVE YOU CANDY BECAUSE THE MONEYS COMING OUT OF MY OWN FUCKING POCKET
FUCK (KOREAN) CHILDREN

i can't FUCKING wait to go home!and i'm so FUCKING GLAD THAT I DIDN'T EXTEND
they don't deserve my fucking time.

it may just be because they're young
but i think it's just because they're stubborn little shits
that won't go anywhere in life, because they're so fucking annoying
good luck to ya all in the future, cos you'll fucking need it!


p.s i felt the need to highlight every fuck i said, cos thats how angry i am

53/59 days to go?

My flight is booked to arrive in Melbourne on the 26th of July..
but my school does not know this... haha
i will have to tell my head teacher today..
wish me luck >_______<

Last night i was tossing and turning in bed as usual,
and i had a sudden will to get my tongue pierced. LOL
i think it's cool! and i really want another peircing,
but my ears are done, i'm waiting to get my belly done,, so where else?
lol!

I was also thinking, about the tattoo i'm getting,
i originally wanted to get a treble clef in black on the back of my right shoulder,
however i realised that i can't wear singlet tops at home then,
because my parents will see,
so i thought, hmmmmmmm where else can i get it?
i think the safest thing to get will be my name scrawled in cursive
on my lower back,, haha

it's not very original, but at least it won't lose meaning,
and i can't see it, LOL!

so i think thats what i will get.. sighhh
i woke up at 10.30am today,
i've been trying to wake up 6.30 for the past month..
to try and exercise in the morning,
but its just not working.. UGGHHH
at this rate i won't look any different
and like i said i only have 53/59 days to go!
thats not enuff to have a dramatic change if i just exercise at night!
i'm going insane, haha
its not like i willingly go back to sleep after i turn off the alarm,
i wake up at 10.30 and have no memory of even turning the alarm off~
UGH

desperate times call for desperate measures!
i think i may stay up all night tonight! hehe
lets see how that goes....

JEJU

I spent the weekend in Jeju~~

And i had to fly straight from Jeju to school this morning,,

UGH.. and how convenient that theres a bazillion mozzies there right now,

and something there gives me hayfever.. ugh~

ahh well, it was still fun :)

i ended up spending a lot of money, 

because i bought a bag, which i don't really like,

but like.. if that makes sense.. haha

here it is..

what do you think?

its a nice summery bag,,

i'm just scared its a bit too fobby~

nevertheless i can't do anything about it now.

might as well just use it!

now i seriously have to save my money! haha

baby one more time~

from now on, i'll post photos on here!
so i can keep you up to date on my purchases!! hehe
you should do the same cecie!!
i wanna see everything that you've bought!

i was thinking about my shoes yesterday,
the ones i bought just before i came here,
and i reeeaaallly can't wait to wear em! hehe
my wedges, and my pumps, and ima buy MOREEE!! lol

i think the reason i can't sleep at night is because
i think of all the shopping and fun i'm going to do/have when i get back!
and i can't waaiiit!!!
i seriously canNOT keep using the SAME shoes everyday!!
it's driving me bloody insane here,
i cant even begin to describe what i'm feeling right now,
thinking of all my shoes and bags at home that are , "abandoned"
UGGGGGGGGGH!!!!

i've started my diet again today:D
AGAIN.. this is the last time i'm going to try and lose weight,,
i wanna be 58,

but by the time i leave korea i want to be at LEAST 62!
AJA AJA FIGHTING!!!!!

cecie you're my motivational buddy! haha
so keep me motivated!

TMR i'm off to JEJU! ♡ FUN FUN FUN!!

11 weeks to go ♡

After whats already been, almost 4 months,
i'm just DYING to get home.
i know that when i actually get back into the usual routine
i'll want back in korea..
but seriously, the time i've spent here has already given me everything i could get out of this experience.
i've made good friends all over the world,
including: south africa, new zealand, america, england, australia(sydney,brisbane,perth)
i've learnt to be independent and experience what its like to live like a stinge, to try and save on gas and electricity.
i've learnt valuable lessons about who you can and cannot trust,
i've also learnt a great deal about myself.

First thing i'm going to do when i get home is:
-hand out any presents to my parents
-drive my beloved car FINALLY,
-hand out presents to friends.
-eat nandoz!
thats all i have for now,
but i can't WAIT to unpack my suitcase with my new clothes
ALSO i have to go back to the deli and try and get my job back!
IF in case i don't get enough shifts, i'm going to have to start looking for a new job!
because although i SHOULD be able to take 1000 from here,
i'm afraid i might have to give it to my uncle!
by CHOICE of course!
he's ill so i want to chip in for his airticket to australia,
which will be his last time out of the country!
but MAYBE i can just send it to him later next year.
i'm still thinking about it..
sooooooooooooooooo
this month i must save $600
then next month i have to save $900
the NEXT month i'm saving $1500 (hopefully)
therefore together it is $3000.
$2000 of that will be to my parents for my laptop
and i get $1000 back for tax!
that's $2000. (if i don't give my uncle $1000)
then for THAILAND i will only need to save about $3000 more.

maaaan. i hope i can save!
thailand is going to be awsum!
p.s still on my diet :D
except for yesterdays slip up on LOTTERIA(T_T)

fruity puffs~

i have less than 3 months to go!
and i can't wait to go home,
but i don't think i have the mental to go back as a "new" person
it's been 3 months, yet i keep saying "from tmr.."
it really should start from tmr but it just never seems to, haha
but i SWEAR (i think/hope) from next week!
i can't from tmr because this weekend i'm going on a field trip
and i want to show the people that i hate what i look like now
and then meet up with them for the farewell party like a new person too!

i passed todays lesson by showing an R rated korean scary movie
that they seemed to love haha
i'm sure that i'm not allowed to show them it
but who cares.............

i was touched when my 5th graders kept asking me to stay for a year
and why am i leaving so early, they kept asking whether im going cos i don't like them. it made me want to stay

but NOTHING will change my mind,
i konw that when i actually do get home, and find myself in the same old routine
i'll wanna be back in korea, but seriously
i know that i won't be able to take teaching anymore
and just being away from home and all

i really should update my blog often,
because then this happens,,,
i find myself having too much to say and then my blogs become ridiculously long
and i haven't even started to BEGIN talking about whats been going on..

i'll summarise it very quickly.

>>
drunken night.smoking.hooking up.violation.vomiting.reunions.long bus rides.family.phone calls.too much shopping.exhilarating rides.popcorn.wolverine x2.crushes.disappointment.incentives.candy.

that should cover it all lol.
enjoy deciphering it! lol

its never gonna change if i keep saying.. from tomorrow

wow its been almost a month since i'm writing in this..
and i seem to have all the same problems.. UGH
i seriously,, ULTIMATELY need to pull myself together!!
that is all i'm going to say..