be led by reason ..

3 girls. 3 rings.

2010-08-18T06:31:00.000-07:00

Over the break i went to Sydney and saw my Jane and enjoyed the jamming session we had! I can't wait till she comes down here at the end of the year! After Sydney i went straight to the Gold Coast where Cecie, Christina and Josh and his gf were waiting! We ended up going to the worlds, and had 1 hour massages which involved massaged buttocks and painful circular motions by the ladies. Overall a good first visit!

It's been 4 weeks of uni! No need to ask, of course i am behind! I think I thrive off stress during the semester. Haha. I plan to pick up my socks though, very soon!

A new bet with 2 close people have driven me to achieve weight loss. I have decided to post up photos over the weeks, to show the success. Haha.. so stay tuned!

That's all for now!

SAME OLD

2010-06-02T02:44:00.000-07:00

hmmm. lets see..

nothing is new with me,

still trying to lose weight, and trying to just pass my subjects. lol

gees. i need to try harder

and live life fully,

there are people out there being diagnosed with illnesses

while i'm sitting here taking life for granted,

eating my life away.

surely there's more to life than food. haha

i have an exam on the 7th of june, and also an essay due.

the essay is doing my head in,

but no more than what the subject for the exam is doing

i shouldn't've missed those lectures, and most importantly.. TUTES!

luckily i went to all of the last tutorials for section 3 of the subject,

so i can kind of do those questions..

i hope the fact that the exam is mostly multiple choice will work in my favour.

i'm still trying to cram, but it's not working very well.

picture a jug of water and its already full to the brim,

therefore, even though you're trying to add more water

it just won't fit.

that's how my brain is at the moment.

or at least it feels like that. haha

going to sydney and queensland soon.

with what money? i dunno.

6 weeks to go,

and i want to lose 6 kilos! haha

lets hope i succeed.

can't wait to go busking in the streets of sydney with my lovely jane♥

better get back to study.

good luck for those with exams, that are actually reading this

that undefined meaning

2010-04-02T20:43:00.000-07:00

does this blog exist to anyone besides me?

the past few days, i've been so lazy and sleepy.
i missed a few lectures and tutes last week,
which leaves me with more work than ever.
i should probably get onto that soon.

I've started watching grey's anatomy,
and i can't stop. but i'm also in the middle of dawsons creek,
and i can't stop watching that either.
i need to separate my leisure and study time.

i'll let you know if i'm able to do that.

FOUR days (:

2009-11-25T12:44:00.000-08:00

Cecie and I will be going to NZ in 4 days! for exactly 18 days!!

whoot!!

oh... but the activities that she's convinced me to do..

for example, sky diving!

i'm going to kill her when we're actually on the plane!haha

anyway today we're meeting up to buy some essentials~

don't let me forget to pack my umbrella!

you too cecie! hopefully it doesn't rain!

then our activities might be cancelled!

home at last ♡

2009-08-06T03:29:00.000-07:00

it has been 6 days since i have been home, and it has been good!

i got touched down to melbourne at 11am,

and was eating pho by 12pm! haha

one craving satisfied!

i then went home and unpacked..

well more like rummaged through my bag to get all the presents out,

then the next day i met up with cecie, chris and elaine to go to mornington for the day.

it ended up being very.. samantha-esque,

with our different poses and dirty minds.

we then went to airstream to see josh!

then back to mine to dye our hair~

since monday all i have done is ate and slept

... literally.

so i decided to join the gym, and i went tonight!

i hope to go everyday,

especially since we ate all you can eat yumcha in the city today,

With a total of probably 15 dumplings, and just dumplings alone.

i have started to learn the guitar,

and hopefully i can play a tune, this time next year.

tomorrow i am going to go watch bruno.. :S

with josh and cecie,

then on saturday night i'm going to meet the girls from wheelers hill :D

i'm supposed to be going to a few bars with cecie and chris

but i'm still trying to convince my parents!

hopefully they give in!

TT_____TT

2009-07-25T08:33:00.000-07:00

i just had to say..

i broke my favourite earings from witchery.. that i "bought".. HAHA

awww...

after using all my money in the first week,

even after borrowing money from my brother,

i am poor, and have no money..

only money for the bus on monday! haha

wait! i just realised i don't have to go to school on monday!

haha yay thats 3 dollars i can use... haha!

i am soooooo full right now

i had a mood swing and took it out on food,

and used my remaining 15 dollars on junk food at the mart

hence why i only have 3 dollars left.

i am going to start packing in 4 minutes

and will be watching the simpsons for the whole night

because it will be on till 6am.

YAYA back home this time next week .. sweeeet

WHINGE WHINGE WHINGE

2009-07-19T04:29:00.000-07:00

why do i always WISH i lost weight, but never actually try and follow through with it!

today i couldn't be bothered going on a diet, because it takes too much effort, and i couldn't be bothered.. UGH i ended up consuming maybe over 7000 calories? and how much are we supposed to have? probably about half of that.. T__T

this weekend i had a farewell party,

and it was quite sad, but i did not cry. haha

i also realised i still really like some guy,

so that sucked, because i leave in less than 2 weeks,

and also i guess hes dating someone now atm ANYWAY.

so all in all i was just depressed and took it out on FOOD

i ended up spending my food money AND bus money on shoes this week,

i LOVE em, but now i need to borrow money from my brother..

so i'm in further debt than usual.. about 300 more.. UGH

anyway here are the shoes i got!

p.s i AM going to join the gym when i go home, and i reaaaallly need to stick to it! haha

enjoy my shoes! i know i will :D

these are my $260 dollar shoes.. :D

i LOVE em, and don't regret the spend. xD

p.s CECIE, i didn't realise i left my facebook on!

dw i'll call u sometime this week :D

i'll be home next saturday!

GODDDDD how long i've waited to be able to say that .. :D

i'm sooooo excited :D

but please don't be surprised about how much weight i've gained! haha

18days to go?

2009-07-13T06:36:00.001-07:00

less than 3 weeks to go!

i literally feel like starving myself so that i lose weight before i go back home! haha

but i'm sure with numerous hours at the gym and months later it should come off....

SHOULD being the key word here... lol

the $210 shoes that i had customly made arrived today..

although.. not quite in the design i had in mind..

so back they go, and i must wait another week before they are to arrive.

this wednesday i have a dinner with the teachers

to say goodbye to everyone

and then on thursday its off to andong to watch the new harry potter movie!

then friday i have a farewell party with everyone..

it shall be truly sad.

i am currently in denial about a possible lover.

it shouldn't and cannot be true.

more details as things are confirmed.

there is about 18 days to go.

which means 18 more days i can shop! haha

although i have spent.. lets see..

march, april, may and june i have been paid 1500

wats 1500 times 4?

ok i've spent 6000 on food and clothes and bags. haha

my oh my..

i'm hoping to take home 1000.. let's see how well that works out.

hope everyone did well on their exams!

see y'all soon!

Recent purchases

2009-07-06T06:48:00.000-07:00

My new EYEBROWS... HAHA how do i look?

oh and in the background.. my suitcase~~ which i am slowly packing... ^^

i wonder why i have no money..

despite knowing that i have bought all of the below..

however even though i have no money,

i seem to always have enough for junk food..

First my new bag.. Chanel RIP.. Price $40

2nd bag.. $40

My new purse.. $150

My new blazer :D Price: $150

a few dvds i've purchased during my time here..

and the mags i bought at the airport on saturday, the most frustrating feeling EVER is when you wanna read up on some good goss, but it's all in korean.. and about KOREAN celebs.. -_-

3 rings, 1 necklace and umpteen pieces of clothes later.

2009-06-27T08:10:00.000-07:00

after seven days in seoul,
i'm making my way down back to my home in yeongju,
thank GOODNESS.
after a week of being overfed, tanned to the bone, and sleepless nights, i'll be happy to sleep in my semi-own bed in my semi-own home.

I only have 5 more weeks to go!
and i've gained 2 more kilos! haha
OH NO >_<
i think i've pretty much given up,
i think i'll just have to join the gym again when i go home to melb.
at least next semester i can concentrate on getting into shape instead of studying!
so it should happen sooner or later. haha

i got paid 4 days ago,, 1500 dollars
and i only have 600 dollars left...
all that shopping... UGH
i bought a nice FOBBY purse which i shall post up soon hee hee
hope you don't think its too fobby cc cos im gonna use it to death
cos it was mega expensive, haha
and i can't return it.

my burberry-esque bag is breaking..
so i think i should stop using it, if its going to have a life back in melbourne
i'm going to repack when i get back down to yeongju
and put aside the clothes that my mum will take back to melb for me.
she leaves on the 4th of july, so saturday?
YEA.

5 more weeks!
i can almost SMELL the rainwater in melbourne. haha
CANNOT WAIT :D :D :D :D

OVER__________

2009-06-11T22:26:00.001-07:00

over EATING, over SLEEPING
what could be worse for my health? haha
i wake up, and i'm still exhausted and i have a pot belly..
so much for going home as a "new" person.. =S

i have 7 weeks till i go home..
i guess i shall try again from today..
wish me luck!

p.s one more week of teaching, then i get a DESERVED holiday FINAALLLY
for 9 days :D,, oh the happiness :D

i bought some new clothes, and i canNOT fit into them
unless i go on a diet~~~ haha -_-;;
i've lost count on how many times i've been on a "diet"

FUCK THIS

2009-06-04T22:22:00.001-07:00

i need to bitch about the children that i teach.

FUCKING ANNOYING DISRESPECTFUL SHITS THAT DRIVE ME UP THE FUCKING WALL
FUUCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

i can't take it anymore.
i give out candy, "I DIDN'T GET AS MANY COS I WAS LATE"
WELL DON'T FUCKING COME LATE YOU FUCK

"GIVE US CANDY"
I WILL IF YOU FUCKING BEHAVE

"WE WANT TO PLAY GAME"
THEN FUCKING GET YOUR WORK FINISHED WHEN I GIVE YOU THE FUCKING TIME TO

DON'T FUCK AROUND IN MY CLASSROOM,
DON'T FUCKEN DISRESPECT ME
DON'T FUCKING COMPLAIN WHEN I GIVE YOU CANDY BECAUSE THE MONEYS COMING OUT OF MY OWN FUCKING POCKET
FUCK (KOREAN) CHILDREN

i can't FUCKING wait to go home!and i'm so FUCKING GLAD THAT I DIDN'T EXTEND
they don't deserve my fucking time.

it may just be because they're young
but i think it's just because they're stubborn little shits
that won't go anywhere in life, because they're so fucking annoying
good luck to ya all in the future, cos you'll fucking need it!

p.s i felt the need to highlight every fuck i said, cos thats how angry i am

53/59 days to go?

2009-06-02T21:51:00.000-07:00

My flight is booked to arrive in Melbourne on the 26th of July..
but my school does not know this... haha
i will have to tell my head teacher today..
wish me luck >_______<

Last night i was tossing and turning in bed as usual,
and i had a sudden will to get my tongue pierced. LOL
i think it's cool! and i really want another peircing,
but my ears are done, i'm waiting to get my belly done,, so where else?
lol!

I was also thinking, about the tattoo i'm getting,
i originally wanted to get a treble clef in black on the back of my right shoulder,
however i realised that i can't wear singlet tops at home then,
because my parents will see,
so i thought, hmmmmmmm where else can i get it?
i think the safest thing to get will be my name scrawled in cursive
on my lower back,, haha

it's not very original, but at least it won't lose meaning,
and i can't see it, LOL!

so i think thats what i will get.. sighhh
i woke up at 10.30am today,
i've been trying to wake up 6.30 for the past month..
to try and exercise in the morning,
but its just not working.. UGGHHH
at this rate i won't look any different
and like i said i only have 53/59 days to go!
thats not enuff to have a dramatic change if i just exercise at night!
i'm going insane, haha
its not like i willingly go back to sleep after i turn off the alarm,
i wake up at 10.30 and have no memory of even turning the alarm off~
UGH

desperate times call for desperate measures!
i think i may stay up all night tonight! hehe
lets see how that goes....

JEJU

2009-06-01T03:40:00.000-07:00

I spent the weekend in Jeju~~

And i had to fly straight from Jeju to school this morning,,

UGH.. and how convenient that theres a bazillion mozzies there right now,

and something there gives me hayfever.. ugh~

ahh well, it was still fun :)

i ended up spending a lot of money,

because i bought a bag, which i don't really like,

but like.. if that makes sense.. haha

here it is..

what do you think?

its a nice summery bag,,

i'm just scared its a bit too fobby~

nevertheless i can't do anything about it now.

might as well just use it!

now i seriously have to save my money! haha

baby one more time~

2009-05-27T20:42:00.000-07:00

from now on, i'll post photos on here!
so i can keep you up to date on my purchases!! hehe
you should do the same cecie!!
i wanna see everything that you've bought!

i was thinking about my shoes yesterday,
the ones i bought just before i came here,
and i reeeaaallly can't wait to wear em! hehe
my wedges, and my pumps, and ima buy MOREEE!! lol

i think the reason i can't sleep at night is because
i think of all the shopping and fun i'm going to do/have when i get back!
and i can't waaiiit!!!
i seriously canNOT keep using the SAME shoes everyday!!
it's driving me bloody insane here,
i cant even begin to describe what i'm feeling right now,
thinking of all my shoes and bags at home that are , "abandoned"
UGGGGGGGGGH!!!!

i've started my diet again today:D
AGAIN.. this is the last time i'm going to try and lose weight,,
i wanna be 58,

but by the time i leave korea i want to be at LEAST 62!
AJA AJA FIGHTING!!!!!

cecie you're my motivational buddy! haha
so keep me motivated!

TMR i'm off to JEJU! ♡ FUN FUN FUN!!

11 weeks to go ♡

2009-05-13T20:40:00.000-07:00

After whats already been, almost 4 months,
i'm just DYING to get home.
i know that when i actually get back into the usual routine
i'll want back in korea..
but seriously, the time i've spent here has already given me everything i could get out of this experience.
i've made good friends all over the world,
including: south africa, new zealand, america, england, australia(sydney,brisbane,perth)
i've learnt to be independent and experience what its like to live like a stinge, to try and save on gas and electricity.
i've learnt valuable lessons about who you can and cannot trust,
i've also learnt a great deal about myself.

First thing i'm going to do when i get home is:
-hand out any presents to my parents
-drive my beloved car FINALLY,
-hand out presents to friends.
-eat nandoz!
thats all i have for now,
but i can't WAIT to unpack my suitcase with my new clothes
ALSO i have to go back to the deli and try and get my job back!
IF in case i don't get enough shifts, i'm going to have to start looking for a new job!
because although i SHOULD be able to take 1000 from here,
i'm afraid i might have to give it to my uncle!
by CHOICE of course!
he's ill so i want to chip in for his airticket to australia,
which will be his last time out of the country!
but MAYBE i can just send it to him later next year.
i'm still thinking about it..
sooooooooooooooooo
this month i must save $600
then next month i have to save $900
the NEXT month i'm saving $1500 (hopefully)
therefore together it is $3000.
$2000 of that will be to my parents for my laptop
and i get $1000 back for tax!
that's $2000. (if i don't give my uncle $1000)
then for THAILAND i will only need to save about $3000 more.

maaaan. i hope i can save!
thailand is going to be awsum!
p.s still on my diet :D
except for yesterdays slip up on LOTTERIA(T_T)

fruity puffs~

2009-05-06T23:57:00.000-07:00

i have less than 3 months to go!
and i can't wait to go home,
but i don't think i have the mental to go back as a "new" person
it's been 3 months, yet i keep saying "from tmr.."
it really should start from tmr but it just never seems to, haha
but i SWEAR (i think/hope) from next week!
i can't from tmr because this weekend i'm going on a field trip
and i want to show the people that i hate what i look like now
and then meet up with them for the farewell party like a new person too!

i passed todays lesson by showing an R rated korean scary movie
that they seemed to love haha
i'm sure that i'm not allowed to show them it
but who cares.............

i was touched when my 5th graders kept asking me to stay for a year
and why am i leaving so early, they kept asking whether im going cos i don't like them. it made me want to stay

but NOTHING will change my mind,
i konw that when i actually do get home, and find myself in the same old routine
i'll wanna be back in korea, but seriously
i know that i won't be able to take teaching anymore
and just being away from home and all

i really should update my blog often,
because then this happens,,,
i find myself having too much to say and then my blogs become ridiculously long
and i haven't even started to BEGIN talking about whats been going on..

i'll summarise it very quickly.

>>
drunken night.smoking.hooking up.violation.vomiting.reunions.long bus rides.family.phone calls.too much shopping.exhilarating rides.popcorn.wolverine x2.crushes.disappointment.incentives.candy.

that should cover it all lol.
enjoy deciphering it! lol

its never gonna change if i keep saying.. from tomorrow

2009-04-25T11:43:00.001-07:00

wow its been almost a month since i'm writing in this..
and i seem to have all the same problems.. UGH
i seriously,, ULTIMATELY need to pull myself together!!
that is all i'm going to say..

blank .

2009-03-29T23:52:00.000-07:00

My head is empty.. haha
due to the fact that i'm exhausted from such an action packed weekend! haha
i slept about 10 hours last night,
and i think i need another 100! LOL

i seriously want to go shopping,
shopping for clothes~
too bad i need like an XXXL here,
cos everyone is so fricken tiny! HA
i bet christina would need an XL lol.
ah well..
i guess its a good incentive..
but i still want to eat fried chicken..
you can never have enough fried chicken!
but i'm too lazy to go and buy it too..
what shall i have for dinner??
uh.. i know lol..
ugh~ at least school is over..
i can go home and facebook and watch movies. LOL!

i don't even know what the purpose of this post is..
..... meh.

a diamond in the rough.

2009-03-25T21:04:00.000-07:00

hmm..
having just reread my previous post,
i feel like a complete and utter fool.
why must i always figure this out afterwards?
i guess its better late than never.
i have absolutely no feelings left for 'the guy'
infact i'm so sick of the way guys are atm.
finding a perfect guy is really like finding a diamond in the rough.

Last night i was watching americas next top model,
and i was so absorbed in it,
i forgot i was in another country, and in another bed.
then the commercial comes on
and i just think.. "oh.. right.. i'm in korea aren't i?"
LOL. i guess just the fact that i have to rely on myself,
and the fact that its always the same routine,
just made me feel more secure.
and made where i'm staying, just feel like home to me.
it's scaring me! lol
i NEED to go back home.
but i just thought, how cool would it be
if the girls came over to korea for our 21st.
i could show them around, and after,
they don't have to go to a hotel or whatever,
they can just crash at mine!
i mean its not too small.
and i'm sure we'd be spending more time outside it then inside it.
but that means i gotta stay a year..
and am i up for teaching for another 6 months?
i mean its not that hard..
it's just the fact that i'm going to HAVE to.
hmm..

ugh.. i'm just so tired.
despite the fact that i tried to sleep early last night.. 11pm
i fell asleep around 3am, and again woke up at 12pm
which meant i had to catch the taxi to school..
and thats not cheap either! it's just over 10 dollars..
and i guess it doesn't sound like too much,
but think about it.. if i caught the taxi everyday..
$10 x 5days x 4weeks.. = 200 dollars!
which is like 2 pairs of really nice shoes!
and come to think of it.. i've caught the taxi like 10 times already!!
thats like $100!! argh! enuff! lol

ugh i have class in like 30 minutes..
don't make me! T_T
so much for exercising this morning haha..
and tonight i just feel like getting fried chicken :P
but i don't know whether to or not,
because tmr night or it might be sat,
i'm staying at a friends house,
and we are definitely getting fried chicken then..
but i duno if i can wait! HA!
but i'm supposed to be saving money T_T
i'm going to go back home with NO MONEY..
that's why you girls should come here! lol
theres tonnes of shopppppping.. come on! lol

anyway, this post is getting too long.. haha
and despite what you sed cecie, about having to allow comments on here,,
i'm going to take it off soon!
how embarrassing to find no one reads my blog!
i guess i should publicise it,
but i'm scared people i don't want reading it..
will read it! lol.
anyhooo ciao~! have a good day
xoxo gossip girl..HAHAHA jokes..
xoxo yooooonah

i don't want nobody else, i don't need somebody else to tell me about love ♬

2009-03-20T09:17:00.001-07:00

I had never felt like wanting to go home as much as i did last night.
I just kept questioning,
What if i hadn't come here?
What if i had been there for her?
What if i could have made her feel just that little bit better?
Why on bloody earth did i come here?

Seriously coming here has caused me nothing but trouble.
I mean sure, i made a lot of really special friendships,
and nothing would make me regret that,
but at the end of the day,
my reason for being here is not the same as other peoples.

This was my easy way out of uni,
incase i had failed all my subjects,
incase i was going to be kicked out..
but the fact is i wasn't going to be kicked out,
i found that out, before my acceptance to this program even came
but here i am anyway..
all because of the same thing..
A GUY. A stupid guy.
It's always about guys.
and being here, it hasn't taken me away from thinking about guys,
it's making me think about guys even more.
and what the hells the point,
in 6 months or a years time, we will all go back to our real lives.
the ones we so desperately wanted to leave behind.

Right now all i'm doing is living a dream..
thinking that everything back home is okay.
but in actual fact it isn't,
and i have to be ready to face that when i get home..
taking time off it, won't fix whats waiting for me,
it'll just put it off for awhile.

As for my guy problems,
I still like him..
and i just feel so stupid for feeling like this.
I drank my feelings the other night,
and I cried like anything,
it's so stupid that guys can make girls so sad and hurt.
They shouldn't be allowed to.

and just liking him is just so frustrating and causes problems.
I should just get over him.

2 nights ago, another guy told me he is crushing on me,
and even though i think he is cute,
and despite the fact i DID have a crush on him,
i just keep thinking about the other guy..

my heart just aches.
and i HATE it.

my world crumbled.. just like that.

2009-03-16T08:17:00.000-07:00

after what i thought was a perfect weekend,
that it wasn't.

after confessing my crush,
and being rewarded with info that he liked me too,
it was the best feeling in the world.

not so now,
knowing he's too hurt and scarred from his previous relationship..
he wants nothing..
despite what his feelings may be,
he decided to follow his head and not his heart.

and my world crumbled..

just . like . that.

smart choices

2009-03-11T20:42:00.000-07:00

what the fuck was i thinking?
we live on opposite sides of the world!
we live completely separate lives,
we both need to figure out our futures..
theres so many factors against us!
and i'm still stressing..
and we're not even together!
i need to stop thinking that things may work out
and i need to start thinking,
we can't be together!
i mean what's the point,
in 6 months or a years time,
we'll be saying farewell just like everyone else
so what's the point of trying to make it work,
and become something, that will just be for nothing.
and that 2 people might just get a heartache from
and that's another thing,
i came here, because i knew
i shouldn't let a guy stop me from doing what i wanted
and i also decided that i'll only be here for 6 months,
but now that there's a guy that i like here,
i want to stay a year!
like OMG!!
i am so predictable..

i should quit while i'm ahead..
for everyone's sake.

"little crazy monsters they are" she says

2009-03-08T22:24:00.000-07:00

i have found the hardest job in life.. TEACHING
you can't get them to listen for a whole minute!
i had to pull out my big guns.. and speak a bit in korean today..
but it did work. they did listen when i told them to shut up in korean! haha

so this is my 4th day teaching, it is getting better.
and i think i am getting the gist of it.
besides from work there is other stuff going on.

like i have a crush on this guy...
he told me he does too, only i think i bore the poor guy.
so now all i can think is..
why am i so boring, why doesn't he find what i say interesting
and will it be like this, cos if it is,
then my gosh we'd be the boringest couple ever! haha

either way, im still crushing on him
i dunno whats going to happen..
hmmmmmmmm...
it also doesn't help that theres a bazillion other girls crushing on him too!

i have the grade 2's next. they're absolute nightmares,
especially this one kid. they're due any minute!

so i'll keep you guys posted!
i hope you are all having fun at uni!
study haaaaaaaaard!!! :D
xo

p.s i'm so bored at home!
i finished gossip girl, started watching 90210,
now i'm just watching re runs of america's next top model!
any recommendations????

wow..

2009-03-01T06:20:00.000-08:00

so much has happened, since the last time i blogged?
i moved down from yong in,
to gyeong ju, where i had another week of orientation,
we met our co-teachers,
and had more fun..
that included alot of nrb-ing (karaoke)
then on friday i moved down here,
where i will stay for the remainder of my contract,
yeong ju it is called.
my room is very nice,
brand new, very clean,
nice wallpaper,, haha
wats best is,,
i don't have to pay for water or internet!
yay.. so all i pay for is electricity and gas..
so i don't have to pay for as much utility bills as other ppl..

tomorrow i start going to school,
but i don't think i actually start teaching till wednesday,
which is a relief, considering, i havent prepared anything yet.
so i'll do that tomorrow and tuesday..

then this saturday all they gyeongbuk scholars
are meeting up, for drinks.. whoot!
the best thing about being here?
no parents!!!! hahaha..

ohh.. and the most important news,
i broke it off with the 29 y.o.
he was getting too clingy, and too scary
he asked me to meet his dad.. thats a big NO NO..
anyway, hopefully he gets over it quick
he's a nice guy..
just not the guy for me..

miss you all!!! especially you cecie!!
cos i'm sure you're the only one who reads this lol.
xoxoxo luv u

p.s i am now starting gossip girl second season! lol
i should be finished it within this week lol

I'm getting married! ^^

2009-02-15T06:27:00.000-08:00

Last week went by faster than the first week.
I guess I've been having more fun.
The first week i was still in shock, and just wanted to go home LOL
I still do want to go home, but yeah,
I know that there's nothing i can do,
So i might as well just have fun,
that'll make the time go by faster!

i spent the weekend at my aunt's place
from friday night till now, (sunday night)
i'm exhausted and tired.. lol
i climbed 2 mountains,
one on saturday and one today..

thanks to cecie's lovely link
i can now watch gossip girl,
that'll surely make time go by faster
but because this is the last week,
with the girls, and boys i guess, lol
we have to go out every night!!! :D
so i might not be able to start watching gossip girl till next week..

all i've been doing is eating and sleeping,
we're taking class, but we just sleep
and pretend to be sick.. ^^

anyway, i think i've turned TB already!
It's only been 2 weeks, lol
SAVE ME CECIE!! LOL..

i went shopping and bought some cool,
okay i admit,,, TB stuff.. lol
but i figure, i might as well embrace my TB side while i can.. ahha
you'll have to snap me out of it when i get back cc.. haha

anyway i miss you all :)
i hope you're all making the most of your holidays,
you all start uni soon! :)
xoxo

fly me home

2009-02-08T03:26:00.000-08:00

it hasn't even been a week,
but i am home sick..
well i'm not really home sick,
more like people sick..
i miss everyone
and the fact that i am actually sick isn't helping
i have a fever and sore throat.. :(

we started classes a few days ago
they're pretty fun
and corny at the same time
we learn little games to help us teach
and stuff like that.. haha

there are/were 2 hot guys..
one he's not hot anymore lol,
after getting to know him, he's more a little brother
the other one, he's really arsehole-y
he knows he's good looking haha..
but he's still good eye-candy :)

yesterday we went to the blue house,
which is like the white house only different lol.
and we got back last night at 6pm
and ever since then i've been lounging around my room
watching dvds, sleeping, eating a bazillion vitamin c tablets
and taking antibiotics and drinking water.
might i add i didn't have dinner last night
cos all my friends went out so i didn't want to eat dinner by myself
how embarrassing lol.
and i missed breakfast this morning
and they're not providing lunch today
so my bro had to walk for like 2 hours to get pizza for us haha

tomorrow we start classes agen
and on tuesday we're getting our health check up
my first blood test
argh!!!

i'll let you know how much it hurts. :P
bb

vomit on the floor..

2009-02-06T06:17:00.000-08:00

OH MY GOD..
me and my roommate jane just ran out of our room,
because our other room mate who we don't like started vomiting in our room.
fucking feral.

on a better note,
classes started yesterday,
and they're not too bad.
corny but fun,, haha

tomorrow we're going on a field trip to the blue house,
and some other place.. i forget the name.

i am really not in the mood to write anymore

i feel like bitching, but its a bit hard to,
when i'm not really talking to anyone..

so till next time
hope you guys are keeping yourselves busy till uni begins :) xo

korea~

2009-02-02T07:09:00.000-08:00

i'm in korea peoples!
and i'm going to be updating my blog heaps, so keep up to date
i've settled into my room,
i'm sharing with 2 other people during the orientation..

the flight to korea was a bitch
the 11 hour flight was so long,
but many entertainment stuff was provided
i watched ghost town, and sister hood of the travelling pants 2 :)
jealous cc? haha, don't be it wasn't that good,
just lots of complicated plot lines.

then when we got to korea, we had to take a bus to yong in,
which took almost 2 hours!
so now i'm bus sick and jet lagged,
i didn't get any sleep!

tomorrow we don't have any lectures or anything
so i'm going out with a few of the girls that i met
it should be good
it's not too cold, about 6 degrees when we landed,
don't know about now tho, it's 12.30am here.
and i'm very tired !
so i will update agen soon

i miss you guys :)

p.s there are lots of hot guys here, especially our host, called max ;)

xoxo

AAAAAAAAAAAARGHHH

2009-01-26T15:16:00.000-08:00

"AAAAAAAAAAARGHHH" pretty much sums up whats going on in my head at the moment.

life is sweet tho,
i'm leaving to korea next monday
and the guy i like, likes me back
what more do i need?

well its more complicated...

newhooo, i decided to see what it was like writing a post on my new mac :)
and it's SWELLLLL~~~
lol catchya!

bloody @#$&*#$%$#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-18T04:18:00.000-08:00

why is it always me! who never gets what they want T.T
it's soooooo unfair..

ok let me start from the beginning.

last sunday i saw the church guy for the first time in 2 weeks, and i had convinced myself that i did not like him any more.. and then what happens? as soon as i see him, as soon as he rubs my back, i'm head over heels once again. so anyway, i'm all depressed, but happy, cos i get to see him at night after church too, so i'm all happy blah blah blah, but depressed lol. and the reason i was happy was because i found out he is not 30.. he is 28!! which is good :) it's a single digit difference, hehe. but when i tell him i am leaving for korea in 6 months, he tells me "oh no , then we can't see each for one and a half years" and i'm like WHY, and he goes, "cos i'm going to korea for one year in august" and that is when i get back.. :(

then 2 days later, on the tuesday, i got to the minister house, to bid farewell to one of our church friends, and we end up driving up to dandenong mountain, in my small, and very weak micra. and after much fight over who is going to sit in my front seat next to me, my church guy wins :) and boy was i happy, he also sat there on the way back. :) :) :)

then i was suposed to see him on thursday and friday of that week too, but i didnot.
then i saw him today, and i badgered him to buy me an icecream, cos he sed he would. neway then i saw him with this girl :o! i was crushed, cos he would rub her back and grab her by the hand and pull her like he did me..... i was very crushed, tottallly unexplainably crushed. apparently she was leaving to korea today, so he walked her to the station.. :( then i remembered what my mum said to me, "don't like a guy just cos he seems to be nice to you, cos guys are nice to all girls, that's just their nature".. @#$%^%@##@#!!!!!

newho.. we are going out this tues.. to watch yes man and have dinner?
thinking maybe i should make a move? apparently today my mum asked him if he is going to get married or not (Because i have a sneaking suspicion that she is suspicious that i like him lol) and he told me he sed "i will if you let me marry yoonah" and i'm pretty sure thats what he sed, because my mum wouldn't tell me what he sed. so i'm thinking of telling him on tuesday, in a joking way, but to get an answer out of him, "marry me when we meet up next year". and see what he says,
cos he is the cutest, nicest, manliest, sensitive, PERFECt guy i have ever EVER EVERRRRRRRR met, which makes me wonder will i find anyone more perfect???

anyway enuff of him,, this is why its taken me so long to write a new blog, this blog just reminds me of him, and i get depressed..

newhoo,, on friday i went out with cc chrissy and elaine, we had dinner, which went right through me, and maxibons for dessert, well they did. then on saturday i met up with cc for a bout of shopping, where we ended up getting 9 pairs of shoes between us, most of them mine,, haha but hey they were nice, we spent almost 2 hours in the warehouse wondering whether party feet really do work, and whether we should get the shoes that were a size too big, and the shoes that were a size too small. we DID end up getting both hahah. then off to wittner outlet for another few pair of shoes.. then back to glenny where we got party feet, and after tentatively sticking them on, realised with delight that they do work. i then went to knox where i met up with some high school friens, where we had nandoz, (As usual) and watched bride wars, which i would give 2/5 stars. then of course i had church today, and i've just gotten back from dinner with a few work friends. we ended up going to safeway to pay back all those people who made us "Freshly slice ham/proscuitto/mortadella" etc on our clean slicers just before closing time. and imust say i thought it would feel good, but we just ended up feeling sorry for the girl, especially cos i didn't buy any of it. haha

wish me luck for tuesday xx

so much to say, it's all crammed in my head!

2009-01-05T04:19:00.000-08:00

wow, i have so much that's been going on, but cos there's soo much, i've forgotten most of it.
let me get started right away:
on friday night cecie and christina came over for dinner and a movie,
i swear me must be subconciously thinking about vampires all the time,
because we unknowingly chose a horror movie about vampires, lol
i swear we didn't choose it on purpose, we actually skipped past all the vampire ones, oh well.. lol
then the next day, i had to get up at 5.30 to get to work by 6am!
6am-3pm, it doesn't sound as bad as it may seem. the hours go by quite quick!

this week i think will be the last week i work full time
i WAS going to work till next week but i cbf!
i swear 2-11pm everyday will make you go bananas,
especially if the people you work with are crap!

hmmmm what else.. i missed church yesterday, which means i didn't see the guy
i dunno if thats a good or bad thing, cos i do wanna see if i have any feelings left
but then i really don't want to know at the same time, cos if i do,
then it'll be that much harder to leave. (classified info) LOL

i've just gotten home from work, my head is pounding with blood, and my legs and feet are throbbing,, also with blood haha..

the 6 kilos i have lost? i think i've gained 2 back. hahaha
maan i need to get better scales, you weigh yourself, and it says one thing, you weigh yourself agen to see if its accurate, then it comes up with something totally different. oh well, it shows your average weight.

i changed my layout! hope you like it.
ciao for now.xx sweet dreamsz..

the new year :)

2009-01-01T23:56:00.000-08:00

NEW YEARS RESOLUTION: ..
?? to get fit? to study harder? to find love?
they never seem to change.. how predictable we humans are.. hmm

anyway i wish everyone a happy healthy and prosperous new year !!!!

i am glad to say i started this year off with no thoughts in my head,
no depressing thoughts, no sad thoughts,.. nothing
which means i am almost over that guy.. thank goodness?? lol

i know i know.. it's quite quick.
but i figure, why let yourself be depressed and sad when it's only affecting you, and you know its not going to work out?? MOVE ON SISTER!!
or i guess you could just say it doesn't sound like i liked him enuff,,
but that's not true.

i'll let you know the best way to get over someone?
just focus on allll their bad points, convince yourself that they're not for you, that you'll find someone better. i guess it kind of worked..
although all his bad points were, short and old? but what does height and age have to do with anything?

today i was at chadstone with my mum, and i saw a couple go by, and i felt myself criticising them..
it was an asian girl with an aussie man who was prolly 10 years older than her..
and i just thought, how could i let myself think that they shouldn't be together?
why should outsiders even care? if thats what makes those 2 people happy, who are we to say anything. you can prolly say i learnt something from all this, lol (well i want to tell myself that)

anyway the girls are coming over tonight, christina and cecie. they were supposed to be here 2 minutes ago.. where are those girls.. tsk tsk lol.
anyhoo there's much more to say, but they'll be here any minute,
i'll update next time

ciaooooooooooo :)

follow your heart ♬

2008-12-28T03:03:00.000-08:00

last saturday i caught up with a few girls plus greg from high school,
we had dinner at nandoz (knox) then chilled out at the coffee club,
reminiscing about old times.
next year will be my third year of uni,
i feel so old, but there are times when i wish i was older, and times when i wish i was younger. so i guess all i can do is make the most of now. but it's very hard to do so, as everyone prolly knows.

then i left for church camp on christmas day. i was absolutely dreading it, cos i thort that i would be a loner, cos i'm not really friends with anyone, just this one girl, but she left for korea. but it worked out to be great, i got to know almost everyone, and am pleased to say my korean has improved a lil.. hehe

after returning from camp on boxing day, i went shopping with my mum, but did not buy anything cos i was too stingy. and i went shopping the next day too, but again i was too stingy. however that night (Saturday) i splurged $100 on dvds T.T.. don't judge me tho, i was depressed. lol

it's a very looooong story..
but i'll try to keep it short.
the guy that i like, is too old for me, but he's perfect! manly, warm, protective. everything i want and need in a man. but my mum does not like him. i don't really want to know why. anyway i was all depressed cos i thought, even if things do work out between us, nothing can happen, because my mum will say no. i guess that's not reli a problem unless i plan to get married to him. but the thing is, crazy enough.. i would get married to him lol.
i saw him today, he asked for my number, he was very nice, etc etc
i really have to figure out what i'm going to do about this,
whether to like him or cut it off, but how can you simply just cut your feelings off when you like someone a lot. i never let myself get like this, not after what happened with my ex (egyptian). but for some reason i let myself this time, and now i am suffering.

i'll keep you posted in what i am going to do,
it will most likely be me giving up, because i'm too young to get married, and it will just NOT work out, because it never does for me.. funnily enuf i'm sadder and more nervous about this then when i knew my results were coming out. i'd rather that feeling than this! HELP!!!

have a good new year all xx

3 words

2008-12-20T23:05:00.001-08:00

3 words that changed my world..

"there's only you" ♡

he's just not that into you

2008-12-16T17:45:00.000-08:00

i haven't had much time lately to update my blog
and even now doesn't seem like a good time to write
but nevertheless i must or else the next blog will be a very long one,

last saturday i met up with cc to get our tragus done, and boy did it hurt lol
even now i must say it is very sore and it has blown up lol.
then we went shopping where i managed to obtain, lol, 2 sets of earings and a headband. then off to nandoz with the rest of the girls for dinner, where elaine ended up taking all my chipdip and cc my drumstick! haha.
then saw twilight at 9.15 in vmax knox!
now this is where all my rantings begin.. haha

every single person has a diff version of how they read the book, and how they imagined different things to be. and knowing that i went into the movie completely open minded, knowing that whatever it's like, it must be right in its own way. seeing as stephenie meyer herself commented on it and fixed bits up. but the amount of criticism i hear from people about how it wasn't good enough, and how this person is crap and so on, just frustrates me.
to make a movie based on a hit book that has been keeping fans waiting for 2 years, will of course give fans alot of time to come up with what they expect, but for them to even make the movie? we should be thanking them, because we may have needed to wait another few years for them to decide to make it. then where would we be?
another thing, ppl just don't seem to understand the characters at all.. i mean did you guys read the book thoroughly? or did you lightly skim through it?
well it doesn't matter in the end, because i liked it, and i thought it was as good as they would be able to get it in a 2 hour limit.
special props to the ppl who play the cullen family. i understand it must be hard for them to live up to such high expectations, but they fulfilled mine. especially carlisle is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo hot! lol and so is jasper and emmett, they're cute.

anyway enuff of that, the next good movies aren't coming out till january! and harrypotter isn't even coming out till june/july! which is a nightmare! i mean geez they didn't have to pull it back that much! even though they knew twilight would be such a big hit lmao.

i'm going to work in approximately one hour, and getting paid in approximately 2-3 hours, i make 500 a week, and for the past 2 weeks, only managed to save 700, i won't be able to put any away this week either, due to presents i have to buy! and i completely forgot i have to get my car serviced, and thats going to be another couple of hundred $$$!!

catchya

ZOMFG!

2008-12-06T22:22:00.000-08:00

so yesterday was the last day of chinese school, and so they had some sports day thing, but it sounded pretty gay to me, so me and my bro told the teacher that we're going overseas so we couldn't stay haha. if only that were true..

then, at 3.30 cecie came over to watch1 litre of tears, and despite the fact that it was supposed to be sad, we got through the first 4 episodes with no tears, just laughter, LOL.. but it's not as bad as it sounds, i mean we know that it's sad cos the girl who's only 15 has some brain degenerative disease (forgot what its called) and that she becomes brain damaged, that bit is very sad. but you should have seen the her dad! he's the funniest guy you'll ever see, he acts so funny, i think he chose the wrong genre, instead of drama he should go into comedy. oh well.
anyway in one of the episodes there is this bit where the girl (Aya) falls down head first onto the road, and all last night that just kept replaying in my head, the fact that her whole body went limp and stuff, pretty scary stuff! so i didn't end up getting much sleep. oh well!

then this morning i went to go pick up my dad from the airport. and we almost died! cos i drove there, but i almost hit 2 cars whilst changing lanes... my mum had two mild heart attacks! :S whoops. xD

then it was time for church! i fell asleep during the service, and i could've sworn i heard myself snoring lol.. i also have some confusing news! yas it's about the church guy. i was sitting way up the back and he sits in the front row, and at the end we introduce the new comers, and he had turned around, and he cocked his head to look at me. i could've sworn he had done it on purpose! that sounds a bit silly, but THEN, later he comes up to me, deliberately i think! to come say hello, in such a manly and soothing voice, and he grabbed my FLABBBY arm lol, and then i was all paranoid that he might think my arm was too fat or something LOL!..

>.<

a rose with any other name would smell as sweet <3

2008-12-01T04:08:00.001-08:00

this lady today must have decided that standing really close to me in the queue(?) would somehow make it move faster, she literally stood so close to me i could feel her breathing on me! EWWWW! so i'd move forward, and what does she do? move forward too .. argh

today i went to work, and it wasn't too bad..
cannot wait till i find out how much i earn a week..
i need to see if this manual labour work is all worth it!! lol

on saturday the girls came over for a sleepover!
and yet again we decided to cut poor elaine's hair
hehe. but it looks realllly gooooood..
we also played card games and truth or dare like we were high school girls! haha
then the following day, after not much sleep, we made our way to the city!
we ended up karaoke-ing at kbox with the boys hogging the mic for most of the night
then dinner at desert house. all up it was a good time!

i have decided that i will give up on the guy,
not that i have deep feelings for him yet or anything..
but yeh, the best thing to do is protect your heart from getting hurt!
i sure wouldn't want to find out my boyfriends cheated on me again!
dont know whats wrong with all the men today..

time for sleep :) bb

Sucks to be me..

2008-11-26T04:15:00.000-08:00

GAH! another 9 hour day at work..
my feet are soo sore...
but i guess thats what happens if you work for 9 hours straight serving ham to the customers.. argh.. constant smile.. constant hellos.. constant walking.. constant standing!
my happy time is sleep time hehe :D

anyway on another note..
this is the time (a few days after i acknowledge a crush) whether i think i should just stop, or FULL STEAM AHEAD! lol.. but i think it'll have to be "stop" unfortunately..
we can never be together even if it worked, cos he goes to my church for one, so my mum knows him, and prolly wouldn't ever approve, and also cos i can't do anything! like pull any moves..
but his eyes are so full of love and he's so manly (did i mention this b4? lol) and he's perfect for me. funny, charismatic, not too goodlooking for his own good, good fashion, and able to support himself.. aaaaaaaaaaaaah! the frustration!!!
this just makes me want him moooooore! LOL

what would be the biggest age gap you would allow between you and your partner?
i'd say 20! my friends say i'm crazy, lol
but they're so manly and accomplished by then! lol who in their right mind would go for an immature little brat! lol..

anyway that's all for now

signing out,

seduction!

2008-11-23T16:30:00.000-08:00

is seduction a sin? lol
not really right?
maybe if they guy or girl is already married or something
it should be ok if he's single or just dating right? LMAO!

what makes me say this you say?
i have a crush!
and i haven't had a crush on anyone since last sem!
and THAT guy was a bloody arse, he was a meanie!
but this guy isn't.. i don't think haha.
cos he goes to my church! thus the sinful talk..

i think he's out of my reach, not cos he's too good for me,
but cos he's religious, and i can't match that, lol
not to his standard anyway.
but he's just so manly, and funny and cute........
DROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL :P

must wait!

2008-11-20T21:49:00.000-08:00

today i was trying to find some clothes in my wardrobe, and it was a complete mess! haha
i had clothes all over the place, and i counted how many shorts i have, i have 8! 9 if i count my faded ones LOL..
you could say i have an obsession,,
first it was shoes, then bags, then shoes agen, then bathers, now shorts! haha, now it's just all boho-ness.. boho is cool! despite what people may say about it hahaha..
and i reckon mischa barton looks great! at least she has the guts to be daring, instead of following the trend.....

pollen is in the air! hayfever is driving me nuts! i envy those who don't suffer from hayfever..

my brother has jetted off to japan for 2 weeks,
lucky him.. and soon my dads going over seas to korea!
i can't wait till us girls go over to hawaii!
it shall be sooooooo good.
i've already stocked up on all my bathers,,
all i have to do now is lose a bit of weight so i can pull them off! lol
although my diet isn't going too well, better.. but not too well lol.
i had 2 churros today, but i burned them off i promise! lol
soon i'm going to golf with my parents, just to walk around.. ahh

good luck to those who still have exams!
아자아자 화이팅!
aza aza fighting!!!

summer rain ♡

2008-11-20T02:31:00.000-08:00

NEW BLOG
my first proper blog place since msnspace.
ahh trusty old msnspace.
it holds all my memories, or should i say whinges from high school, i shall never delete it! LOL
i hope lots of people read this blog too!

yesterday i finished my exams, and to relieve some stress me and cecie went shopping at mc then at glenny, which happened to be vip night! and as if that wasn't enough.. we ended up going shopping agen today! at DFO. i ended up buying, 2 pairs of shorts, 1 skirt, 1 singlet, 1 headband, 1 dress, 2 pairs of shoes, and a scarf.. lol which i didn't really buy lol.
now i feel guilty, and only have $250 left from $650. SHIT! i didn't realise i spent so much money.... oh well, i got some really nice stuff :)

dreading results release date.............

anyhoo luv ya! xo